Well my wife Cyndi and I had a wonderful weekend together at Branson. We went and saw Sight and Sounds "Jesus" which is a must see!! It was a great musical of the life of Jesus from birth to his death and resurrection on the earth.
We saw another musical and story about a Baptist Church in the 30's . great southern gospel music !! And while there was a lot of comedy , in my opinion the funniest character was played by a young lady who was more funny , as my wife said then most male comedians!!
Now to the purpose of this post, happiness. What is happiness? You know 20 years ago this Friday is the 20th anniversary of the car wreck that told me that nope I'm not superman and nope my head is not made of steel. 20 years ago my ex-wife was told that I wasn't expected to live, and if I lived I would be nothing more than a 1 year old, due to the severe brain injury.
Happiness was not waking up in T.I.R.R. after being transferred 3 weeks earlier from Herman hospital where the brain surgery took place and where I was put in a induced coma for over 30 days then transferred to T.I.R.R.
Happiness is not meeting someone only to forget who they are with in 10 minutes, only to forget ,and then meet them again 10 minutes later and ask who they are. I was literally the 30 second memory dude off of the movie 50 1st dates!!
Happiness is not knowing who your ex-wife is when she is still your wife and you don't recognize them and your dad keeps saying to you she's your girlfriend, due to the issue with my brain.
Happiness is not know simple words of the English language and the word you choose might mean the same thing but it is not what you would normally use in your day to day language.
Happiness is not being able to keep mouth shut, due to a non barrier issue, when you think about what to say and it can be something really dumb or that the other party didn't need to know. For when it happens, it can cause hurt feelings and anger in the other people you are speaking to, and can cause an escalation to the events you are talking about.
Happiness is not being shunned and put down by the spouse you gave your life to and to be accused of things you would never do, to have to spend a lot of money to prove your innocence only to never be told ,"sorry" form them.
Happiness is not being told you can never do the same work that you loved doing for 15 years due to the lies and the so called sin you were guilty of that you committed in private, that your repented of and confessed in private prayer.
Happiness is not to see your children taken across state lines from you while your still recovering at T.I.R.R and see you own parents hurt by what the other party is doing to you, their chu ,while you are still recovering from a major injury.
Now I could go on and on with what happiness is not , but why would I ? I am nothing but blood and bone and soul. And happiness is that Jesus of Nazareth, being the son of God and fashioned as a man , became that living sacrifice for the sins of us all!!
I'm nothing but Jesus helped me realize that I'm actually something! So happiness is the blessings of having 20 years of recovery and growth and experience in things I might not have ever experienced if it had not been for that wreck 20 years ago!!
What good is a life ,if all I do is sit and have my heart feasting on anger and sadness for the hurt, the lies, and the issues that came about due to my own foolish choices, decisions, and actions.
Your not perfect and if you are a saved Christian , then do not let the life of your past or present ,with the mistakes you have made or are currently making, tear you up and not press forward in the steps of life of happiness !!! For if you do it, will keep you bitter toward yourself and others!! Then those who were out to hurt you, and defeat you, will win!!
